Visiting Aya

Dear aya...

i vow this message especially for you

to knowing that you're not here any more

it's more than 10 years now 

since you've died..

I'm missing thine smile and laugh

you're the sun for the leaves to grow,nay,

we need thou right by our side 

thine spirits instil into our souls

ought to know that,ever since thou left us

okaasan and otoosan can't stop crying

the fact that you're not exist any more,even in mist

thine shoes,pictures and school uniforms is the only thing you left

the only thing that we look at,through all night long...remembering you..

thought that..

do you have it all those things in there?

did someone tight up thine tangle hair?

did someone make a bento for you in the morn?

deep down inside my heart, i know you're happy now

it's because,i often seeing you crying at night,thinking that you've got no time left 

to spend with us..far away my eyes staring only you

some where i knew you've suffered enough,even a scratch on your skin

you couldn't feel the pain..your weeping mellow rhymes with thine soul

it comforts you from getting yourself too much being tortured by thine condition

sometimes people will ask  me,Is thine sister a handicap person?

and I'll say "yes,and why?she's just lacking of something,not losing something"

it makes my heart to stop pounding for a pause,i realized...she'll be okay 

she's fine..thought nothing will happen to her..

but that was a past tense feelings..

past tense events..and past tense memories..

 mourning to thine soul that flee,nothing but a present tense scenic

tears drowning vast as the oceans 

keeping in faith that you'll still be with us even its invisible through our naked eyes

and i believe someday..we'll be together again chanting jokes and songs

to be forever that never apart..

love Hiroshi,to Aya.

I've read Aya's diary recently,and she taught me on how to appreciate people around us.. to live fully with your love one,to please them and appreciate for their love...

seems that living in this world is a challenge for us

there's a high and low for everything

and for aya..she'd pass all those challenges and now...she's rest to a place that we'll heading

soon..by god's wish.

Values and lessons shall be instil to stay strong and keep our faith and believe to last to die.

God's will...