Remembrance

i can't be strong,i can't be tough

because you're not here with me

I'm just a boy who can't laugh

through all night long remembering you

the wind's froze,my bones are shaking

the pillow you gave the one i hold

the one i trust to share my tears

can't bare to cry just keep going

thine voice is so soothing

thine skin is so tender

the rain drizzle keep pouring

to your face,i surrender

to thee the one i talked to

to wish you were here and near

but right now its crystal clear

to have you its not simple

i wrote this gift as soon as i realized that,by the time we need someone that we love and care the most to be on our side,its not that easy to have to,the only thing that we can do is refreshing all the sweet memories and remember it till you smile.

Tell me something

i xxx up myself on the double decker bed in the end
where i played and hid only to myself
somewhere i realized,I'm alone and its pain
alone.abandoned.and silence is the only i have

how "empty silence" meant to you?
would you give me a lights of joy?
for me its nothing even a hue
grow myself,behave a ploy

  

"The time i didn't stood up for her"

Eyns blinking,lashes blow the withering wind away

brows stretching eyns weeping

face wincing 

to prostrate oneself on the wet grass

souls rasping and pray to thee

dear my mighty thee

couldst thou

 turn back to the halcyon days

where she plays a role as a motherly mother whose alarmed with my cries at the owl's night

awoke in every single ticks of time

to keep me silent as she sang me a song

the stars blinking the moon smiling

picturesque in a beauteous scenic as i fell asleep

couldst thou 

turn back on time the moment she laboured me?

yawned to death,howled to vied to give a soul to the innocents soul

and soon raising a bairn 

as the time flies,till its stop

couldst thou

 recreate the exact memories that sealed?

the shelter and comfort that she gave

the alms that she provide with a harsh palm

deep down inside

somewhere i knew

she's keeping her smile too often for me till she's forgot to keep hers

she knacked it

couldst thou thee?

couldst thou?

as the wind slopes,the weather sharps

my guilt picturesque in front of me

my mitts sweats of regrets

bemoaning the chance i used to have

to love her

to embrace her

but i missed it

by making a thousands of reasons to not to be with her

missed of saying "thank you"

missed of saying "i love you"

but i never missed of saying "i hate you"

how cruel would i be?

how demons get into me?

i just don't know

and that's when i didn't stood up for her and it's a past tense memories. 

I used to be "Gemini"

Dear gemini

i stared at you amongst thousands of constellations

with my eyes wide opened

where tears drowning the place i be

relinquished strength and thrives

i surrendered

unknown disease crept me up

thine hands i grabbed

even i slept

it strolled and its pain

the time it ambush

I'm hapless and I'm blanched

i walked with a springy steps

i read but i spelled

i spoke but i stammered

i wrote but i scribbled

it took piece of mine,it's not noble

i cried

it won't dry

I'm struggled and vied with spirits
to be normal as ere
my hues of light turns pale
dream and future was just a paint with no rainbow
its cropped out
I'm suffered hunger for air
sometimes i choke whilst i munched
sometimes i fell for no reasons
till summer seasons
one day
i laid,woke up and i strove to rose
foot stepped the floor the marbles made
i fainted i saw heaven
where doves chirping also raven
its seven
melancholies descends cry my mom i heard
my body statue,my soul flew
i saw the light the angels guard
the place i be the sky  is blue
to me the white moon whispered
Dear gemini,i stared at you amongst thousands of stars
with thy eyes closed
where place no tears to be left to drown.

Soul Surrender

Walking on the monotony of the widest desert

foot stepping blow the sand away

foot steps followed by the soul shadows

copses and thickets will not grow

wind whispering,the sands dancing 

I'm thine dear god

took my heart as thou took hers 

knee kneeling cracks the earth 

rain drizzling ready to cry

its surprising 

heat scents burn our memories away

hand grasping,holding hopes

eyes crying,the wind slopes

vying with feelings

caught up in the abhorrence of sadness

relinquishing out of the blue

here i am talk the talk

admonishing mistakes

the clouds scudding

facing the music,even its excruciating 

for thy sake,I'm willing

slaved me and took me

walking on the monotony of the widest desert

with no steps and shadows appear.

It's Yours

Your voice break the sky apart

Your scents blossom the cherish pink roses

Your touch live my soul alive

Your sight silence my world out of the galaxies

I amazed you,I adored you

Your glare,your tenderness,your softness,your fragile,your everything

I like you and i love you

Believe me and trust me

Bring you to the other shores of life.

Live together,Love forever

Till the end.

Dolphin's diary : God has chosen me

Today i was told to make a diary

Signs and symptoms of a dying dove

Pains and hives, makes me barmy

Wondering what i have,and what i strove 

I wrote every day and every line

Thoughts and feelings i paste on a paper

Drops of ink,tears of mine

Continue to write,i won't hover

Mom and Dad keep in silent

Showing their great tact of a heartless folks

Putting their smile,pretend it,is their talent

Deep down in my heart,i know they don't joke

Family gathered on a delightful dinner

Laugh and smile,they've hogged

I stared,I glanced and I treasured 

It's rare,air of blissful covered by fog

Lay on the bed as i thought

Will my blood flows normally?

Snow White poisoned and she fought

Thought that god has chosen me

Midnight Question

I was born with a small ribs

But i raised with a big heart

Forehead signed with my lips

Does your hair flow side right?

Hair made by golden silk

Flew by wind,its fine

Hearts pound  for you,whip i flicked

Does your soul rhyme with mine?

Our memories rest never fade

Can "I" and "You" be a"We"?

Loving you since first grade

Asking you do you LOVE me?

Heart's Avenue

It's windy on the cloudy day

It's happened the same day by day

You've played my heart,and you said

"I'll let you free and I'm not gay"

Staring down outside the window

Thought "will i be a widow?"

Once or twice it'll not grow

As my love for you are getting slow

You've made my memories,it won't last

Although it makes me increasingly downcast

Scar's of heart,you have caused,curing so fast

The gun i hold,your heart i blast

I've give to you my heart before

I'll take it back,never be bore

My love for you nothing but sore

Ashes of our love,I'll throw at shore

I live my life without you

I've earned the lessons,to me you blew

The word i vowed,now i chew

Solemnly sense,I won't love you

Love Confession

Love..

One word describes everything

Every detail of my chapter

My life

Sometimes i cried,sometimes i laughed

Sometimes I'm blessed,sometimes i don't

You caused me this

For you my heart starts pounding

Eyes seeing your love with wide eyes open

Deeper than the ocean

Higher than the sky

Bright as the cloud

Catching glimpse of love of yours

Spending my life loving you

and i won't left a day

Loving you was insane

but it was blessing in disguise

I'm speechless,can't describe by words

but my heart do speak with melodies

Our melodies

Our song

Our tone

I made for you

Only you,the only one 

I dreamt this big

Never seen your orbs this big

and i do love you this big

Loved me and you know how big my love for you

I love you.

Sighing

My word is sighing

My sighing is the only word

Expressing word by sighing

Built up by thousands of orb

And I'm sighing

Conveying,showing the orbs of feeling

It can be sun,it can be rain

Stone or gold

My word is sighing

My sighing is the only word

Warmth breath exhaled 

Flowing air dragged a scroll

Prons or cons

Dollar or cents

My word is sighing

My sighing is the only word

It brings a lot

Implicit words beyond the wind

It takes a portion of lessons and values

My word is sighing

The only word that meant

Feel it,taste it and through it

Tied the rope up

Solve everything

on ease

Neither victory nor sacrifices

My word is sighing

My sighing is the only word