Once in a blue moon

Roses's petal dried to falls..

The earth silence,the guns growl..

People died,leaving soul..

Protecting soul,the only sole..

Spirits and strength,they're all gone..

They took her out,be a pawn..

Trying to run,never be shown..

What on earth,i have own..

Crying for her in a bloody lawn..

Hold on to her till its dawn..

Sounds cracked the earth apart..

No angels who conceal my heart..

Ashes and tears covered the yard..

Guns and bullets in collecting jar..

Closing my eyes,left me a scar..

Howling to pain,howling to vie..

Till the wind blew it dry..

Leapt to her as i cry..

Wondering how,wondering why..

Hope its lie..

She had died..

"I Do"

The chronicles of my life the way its start..

When a lovely flower touches my heart..

Together they bond never be apart..

Its a newlywed's marriage in a beautiful yard..

Its all began when i say "i do"..

Its same goes to you..

We sheathe the ring the diamonds is blue..

A vowed that i blew..

Flows with a picturesque tone that i drew..

It will be a new page for a new chapter..

Go through all our life's neither sweet nor bitter..

Ill be stand by you forever..

As i concealed my arms to you nothing but a shelter..

It was a blessing in disguise..

Marrying to you nothing but wise..

Together we grow our love to rise..

Sacrificing my soul to you that never lies..

That's how i love you till i dies..

Letters to heaven

The first time i met you..

You glowed like shining stars..

Crossed my heart inside..

Fell me into you..

I'm in love..

Unfortunately, its just a halcyon day..

Where i used to prayed...

Hoping and relied on god for our love to stay..

Rains fell on me without nothing to say..

Its all too sudden as i thought while i lay..

Like its the first time i felt this way...

First time..

Two words with a different chime..

It was my "First" sight seeing you nothing but prime..

Thought it wasn't a crime..

As the "Time" flies across the line...

Its a memories,Its all mine..

As she goes to the other side of life..

I'm out of the blue ready to rife..

She did died,that's my wife..

Wisdom and strength that's all i strive..

It's like Jake and Rose died in love as they dived..

Im alone,speechless,hapless even im alive..

its pain as a hive..

Sighing no words to say..

living like no rainbow after rain..

Continued to live even its ailed..

Hoping there's a slice of heaven for me to railed..

From now,Im here,ready to sailed..

To the journey after her..

And i won't failed..

Thanks to her..

Thanks to my "Wife"..

The bittersweet of a dole letter..

The way its end..

Goodbye...

Love,Your Husband Raffy..

Love Avowed

Only if..

Only if you go..

Away from me..

I would die for you..

Knowing you 're my blood..

My air to inhale in every sec..

My veins to my heart..

Beating for you..

By hand to hand...

Chest to chest..

Eyes to eyes..

Those sights can't barely moves amazed by the delightful sights of yours..

Staring pensively to your heart and soul for clue..

Strive and keen searching only you..

My feeling and love to you nothing but true..

I'm begging you..

Ceased me from rolling in the out of the blue..

Repeating words to you that never chew..

Only if you see the implicitly faith that i drew..

Only if..

Only if you're gone..

Only if you go..

Nothing at all

Here I'm standing with rains falling..

clouds and tears scudding..

till its stop with your "word"avowing..

still YOU left me behind without no word saying..

my soul and heart tearing apart as i crying..

my melancholy cries heard by the thousands of bird chirping..

still..

YOU left me no final kiss..

YOU left me no final embrace..

YOU left me no final word..

YOU left me clueless..

YOU just watched me die,from behind..

without knowing I'm hunger for your love..

I'm helpless..

hapless..

as a broken wing dove..

hardly to bond my love to YOU,but i strove..

for our love...

still...

you left me nothing..

no even single scents of yours..

lingering skins of yours..

the only left was bittersweet of ours..

chasing pavements of ours..

tasting it..

through it..

dolefully...

YOU left me nothing..

nothing..

nothing...

even goodbye..

Thought i have it all..

I'm crossing over,saying to YOU my last goodbye..

Only mistakes and regrets,memories made..

The monotony pattern of our love..still,even I'm in hades

Still YOU left me nothing..

Changes nothing..

Nothing at all...

Heart is bursting at the seams over tears.

I'm used to mirth..

used to be joyed..

used to be someone that i loved..

but it's differ now, living in a empty wide white empty room..

all those from halcyon days in a moment where the day the sun stood still to shine joyfully.

Before long,the soulfully,dawning sun heralded the end of the gravely gloom day,

just..

just...

let everything go,as its the end of life..the after life would be never change at all..it wouldn't be exist as i considered my self to be appeared,away from the out of the blue,souls departing away from the unheard voices, unheard cries of a innocent peoples. 

My eyes now are red soon it will be blue,seeing things that human can't see..i wish it to happen..someday,soon,later OR even now...

People do feel blissful,prosperous or even pulling someones leg,but...there's a grain of truth behind everything,there's a dole behind happiness..then just take a moment to really see others people life,how worsen it would be,how devastated it would be..we never know,but all that matters, we DO have feelings,do care to other people,love other people without "calculate" everything as we are,human creation's of god the residents of the earth..DO LOVE,DO UNDERSTANDING....ME AS AN UNOCCUPIED FEELINGS TALKING....

The last "Fin" (Part 1)

Hearts pumping..hand shivered..he never wanted all this to happen,he never asked,but it's destined as if its out of the blue.It was 50 presently it'll be 59.

He was deeply aware of his melancholy as he stood in the elevator meeting up his "wife" at 59.

God knows how sad he is,calamitous elvis has left the building soon,but all he can do is just face the music,only with consent feeling and sigh..relinquishing tears.

Despite of the ending, he pretend to be calm and not to shows his disappointment,he smiled instead,as a clown often convey his happiness as if he don't but things are out of his control.Shortly after..."ting"sounds to be appeared,the doors open,once its open,he can perceived the scents of her hair, lingering of her smoothest,softness skins....all those odors are scents that he smelled in the early morning,at owl's night,every second with her was just valuable,countless moment that he'll never forget.

She show up then in front of the elevator door confront her "husband" hoping it wasn't be real to face those devastating circumstance but it's roofless at that moment. Each of them greeted one another with sounds of wistful." Hey...umm....are you okay," he said doleful. "I'm fine" she spell it out as she pretend to,both with a short respond to expressed,out of word of saying goodbye.

She was barely crying,she was bear on to it...trying not to show it up..she was endured inside as battling herself alone..only if  she wanted to embrace him much..holding tight to his chest and let the tears drowning down to his shoulder..but it's all a picture paints a thousand words.

It was a "broken-hearted girl"role  for her to stood facing her significant other with gravely messages,verbally. 

Before long,He could see her eyes suffered from the bittersweet ending,it was like both soul crying mournfully in the miles of dessert.. soon he realized that he can''t cope up with it,can't stand the tears of ocean to drown  her down."He"then.."TBC"

Sounds Of Doleful ( Part 1 )

Life would be effortless if you do make it easier..

living with lit's on,in a rough plane

unpainted wall,soulful wind,heartless tone, would be nothing better to live with and keeping yourself in seclusion's and conveying your great tact...

Piano's note,those notes,those sounds..some make it so joyful to hear,some excruciating pain causes,heart broken-abandoned,it's all living by itself....

but for some reasons it's painless, feeling numbed used to be let down,used to be hurt,extremely till you can't even let your tears down touches the earth,but soon it was your heart who brought down leaving your soul away,seaming hopes..

left unknown.....

Needed somebody,someone,who can puzzled it up all together,at the moment,i'm laying down anxiously showing my abhorrence of disappointment..

decent of melancholy cries and I'm certainly weren't abashed with it.

Only if i could,only if..i would be rather to cross over..but thinking of the old folks...do really make the cheeks watery,intend to die was just a visions,a look to the after solutions....

Being a loner really do help "the kids"to find it's own shelter,food..

thinking I'm the one..I'm the kid..self sensitivity was an intruders presence and I'm holding tights to my mom's shawl as an armor,feeling to be secure and care,love besides,eyes on to watch me,the only thing that works on me was just her,him and them..it's all family at last for some people "family" do important to them...

but for me,it was a seconds of my breath,veins to my heart,soul to my body..drops of tears..it's all wrapped into one single word "family".

As the owl awaken from the day,clock's shows north,my heart's lid began to close and I'm waiting,waiting and waiting for the next sun to rise on the other side's of earth.till then "TBC"